Wow! What a day. What a day. What a day.

Well things are good for me besides dealing with my yuckyness. When it come to Logan my youngest daughter who also has Hepatitis C. She contracted it during a c-section. It is school time and I must say so far I feel relieved. Not just dealing with Hepatitis C myself I have to live her Hepatitis C too. Like when i meet someone I say hello my name is Christie I have Hepatitis C . Like that in different way. But that is point blank I have it tell it is always what I say. I hate the stigma on it so very very very bad. Now Logan going through grade school was good. She had one teacher and she followed alot of the same teachers her sister had. So they were already aware of the Hepatitis C. But every year I still made it a point to refresh the school and her teacher all about the Hep thing. At first her school made me mad at the beginning of us finding out Logan was also positive with her Hep. I called the school and said' I am calling to report about the Hep c and they were am you need to talk to the nurse first before she can come. I was so mad. But then the stigma fear wore off and they opened there hearts 210%. So we are really going to miss them. The kids, the teachers and all employes and other parents too. They all loved Logan. And we all became like family. They went threw me being sick with mine to Logan having it and so much more. Anyways back to now. It's a new school. Middle school. So now there is alot more teachers, employes, kids ext. It's kinda like the feeling of having to tell each one of her friends parests first before she could spend the night. Telling people who know nothing about it is something we have to do. It is really starting to take a toll on Logan.She is asking and crying with the qyestion. Mommy why me. wow What a punch in the gut to me I just try to tell her to get her mind on something else. And I reasure her that we are not going to let this Hepatitis get the best of us. And remind her that healthy people die everyday too. And we will nnot go until God is ready for us. I mean Gosh what do you say? Hard to put yourself in my shoes. The feeling of guilt that I gave my daughter a disease that can Kill her. Evening though that it was because of the c-section and the cut behing her ear. I still go at night before I go to sleep at night lay there hurting because my baby is hurting. Every way she can. And has to live in this cruel world  living it. So today has been a really hard day of thinking about it and not knowing how to come out of this depression I feel because of it. Knowing I have started a support group because Gosh I need it at times. I want everyone in my group to know I thank each and everyone of them..This is something I have keep inthe not knowing what to say or do to comfort my daughter.  Blaaaaaah. Please pray for me!!! Hopefully I can help find a peace for her. Finding a cure for her is why I do all the work for bringing Hepatitis C awareness stuff...... Everyone have a great day!!!